One song says it all...

Mixed feelings..but all answered...
Where o where is the direction of the compass within my heart?

Few thoughts, few lines...

First time seeing a case of intrauterine death last night...One pair of twin, one made it and the other didn't...So much of a difference on how they both were treated...
One being so taken care of by people and the other being wrapped in linen being pushed from side to side...
Many thoughts running through my mind, so swift and so much, I couldn't catch all of them and type them out....but something moved deep inside me...
Couldn't explain how and why or what...
In the multitudes of questions and uncertainties,
I found the answer or should I say I have found the answer long time ago...

Making a comeback

While reading the news from Yahoo, this line particularly struck me : "Even for a country used to earthquakes, this one was of horrific proportions because of the tsunami that crashed ashore, swallowing everything in its path as it surged several miles (kilometers) inland before retreating. The apocalyptic images of surging water broadcast by Japanese TV networks resembled scenes from a Hollywood disaster movie."

Suddenly messages of warnings are circulating among people through sms, emails, Facebook statuses and even Twitter asking us to beware and not to go near seasides at times like this.Besides reminding myself to encourage those in Japan through prayers, I got myself into some serious thinking.

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In the midst of all this happening, I'm sure all kinds of thoughts are running through the minds of the people, mixed feelings of fear, uncertainty, pity, anger and etc...and hey, this could be the starting point of driving people insane from sane, depressive being made worse so on and so forth.However, there are also another group of people whom couldn't be bothered of what just happened even with multitudes of life being taken away.The similarity between everyone is: Somewhere in you, you know that the end is coming very soon...but sadly, some choose to deny it...

The unexplainable increasing amount of earthquakes and natural disasters and certain phenomenon which are happening undeniably points us to the direction of the second coming of our Lord Jesus Christ as far as I believe...

Just to encourage myself and everyone at times like this, a line of the song particularly struck me:
In the chaos, in confusion,
I know You're Sovereign still,
In the moment of my weakness,
You give me grace to do Your will,
So when You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

All my delight is in You, Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You, Lord, forevermore

Blessed Christmas...

Few more hours away and I'll be back in KL!Can't wait to meet up with family and friends!!
Anyway after much abandoning of this blogosphere...am back!!
Another 48 hours....is Christmas!!
Blessed Christmas everyone...may you have an awesome time of reunion and celebration!
Because Christmas marks the birth of the Saviour...

Went through some tough times in the absence of blogging but whatever it is I thank God that it is over (or some still ongoing) I do believe from whatever circumstances that I've been through He is ever faithful and He never fails to encourage me.

Currently am reading 2 books about testimonies of people going through persecution because they choose to follow Jesus and am totally encouraged by it.I know never will I understand the process of how they endure through the darkest moment of their lives.However, profound similarities is found between all the stories even all of them happen in different time, zone, location and of course they don't know one another....

They are freed though they are prisoned
They rejoice in the midst of sorrow,
They sing praises unto Him in the midst of pain,
They continue to choose to do His work in the midst of risking their lifes,
Externally, they seems to be weak and helpless but inside they are well rested in His steadfast love...
They live their life once and they live to the fullest for God...

Some scorned and say, they are fools and fanatic for their faith, why are they so sure of what they are doing will be rewarded?What if whatever that is being in the bible are just another good fairytale or myth,so why waste your life?Why not just run away or deny Him when being interrogated,at least they can save themselves from being imprisoned??and etc etc questions...

As followers of Christ, we know that their reward is not on this transient place we call Earth but heavenwards.They live like a firework, short-lived but awesomely spectacular and impactful! By faith, 100percent trusting in Him..
To all of them, they did/still is doing God's work fearlessly...because of Jesus is the one who truly sets them free:
Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life.He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never go thirsty.But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe.All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me.And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all that he has given to me, but raise them up at the last day.For my father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day."(John 6: 35-40)

So for this Christmas season and the year of 2011, are we ready to live up to the standard that are constantly being raised in our walk with Him?The challenges are never meant to be easy but at the same time neither will it be too difficult...make sense?? ;)

Looking back...a year ago...

Was in deep thoughts past few days...Talked about monsoon in KT, I brought the monsoon back to KL as well but monsoon in my head...thank God for the monsoon has been overcame again!!
Wasn't an easy season at this time of the year last year...Wonder what happened? Well all I could answer is:
1) Overdriven lacrimal glands
2) Lacerated "carditis"
3) Anxiety hallucination(???)
Don't mind the jargons...Anyway they are STRICTLY metaphores!No such signs and symptoms in real medical settings...

Fast forward a year, I realized that I gained more than what I could possibly imagine from where I was 1 year ago.
To you who was involved, I didn't blame you for all that you have done: you came in, you brought in wonderful times by hanging out, but at the same time you did brought in a difficult time for me...Well good news is: I learnt how to pick myself up from where I tripped in a journey called life and thanks be to God for that.And I hope you don't do it on others again, please don't repeat the same mistake ever again!
Looking back it ain't easy for me at all and of course it's not an instantaneous thing to just forget about everything...But I manage to do it with His strength slowly...Every sunset of the previous day, marks the new beginning of a brand new day next...
Every downcast soul, will be lifted up by Him who saves and heals...
The cross is where the ultimate love pours in...
Because...as far as from the east to the west, so far has He removed all our transgressions...
Thanks be to God for lifting me up again and blessing me in other ways that no words can described

During sharing yesterday, someone shared something powerful: Instead of asking "Is he/she THE ONE??", why don't you ask yourself "Am I THE ONE?" and by the way bible never talks about a predestined BGR-kinda-love...The word "predestined" occur 6 times in the bible and they are all referring to the atonement of sin by Christ on the cross and inheritance of God's kingdom...Too deep??Well I should probably stop here right now....feel free to post questions...(coz my comment, not cbox are very very silent for awhile LOL)can't guarantee that I'm able answer all but yea I'll try to....

EOP in 2 days!!!! *screams*

Ironic to be here huh? Tell me: I'm supposed to be studying...I'm supposed to be studying 3 hours because am a medical student....bahhhhhh~~~ whatever!!! I choose to play the stubborn card now....=P
Sigh having said that...I STILL need to mug more....Can't seem to get things into the structure beneath the cranium and meninges.What was that structure again??Whatever lar...*roll eyes*
Practice for year end musical is happening soon...but booo~~ I can't be involved =( Looks like this year I'm gotta play the audience role instead of the crew role ever since I join SIBKL....
Anyway was feeling awesome coz I'm back in the worship team again...but...not back in SIBKL obviously but in AJPC!!! I was really having a heavy heart when I got to leave Atone SIBKL last time before coming to KT, but I guess God place us in different place and different time for a higher purpose.*With awesome Media people of SIBKL**Breathtaking album recording* I miss the season, I miss the fun and I miss this stage!

Hoping to see an awesome show when am back in KL for Christmas!!! Lots to catch up with all the peeps in KL....Did I miss KL??? yes and no....Haih sometimes I realise I'm really an indecisive person...Yea..yea...yea..yea the undecisive me...saying toodles and back to the castle of books...for the mean time....Awaiting lots of fun after EOP perhaps??? =P

It's Difficult..

when...you feel like crying but you gotta keep putting it up to be strong...
reversals happen...the more crappy you feel, the more lame stuff you did...
why?because 9 out of 10 times you weren't yourself...
The song "Don't get too close to me" by Beau Bristow keeps playing...
Far too long...
Thanks be to God,
For I'm,
Prevented from giving up...
At least to Him I don't need to mask up....
To Him, I can freely cry out....
To Him I trust,
To Him I still keep my hopes up...